love!

It has been 6 months! What? wtf?



This is what I missed most about Singapore.

1. The weather
Hot and humid at times, but surely I don't mind the wet --- especially when I am snugly in my bed at home, or feeling the wet wind blow across my face as I sit by the window and rest my chin on the window grille. Window panes wide open with a thunderstorm going on outside.
bam! the forceful assault of thunder and lightning on my sense.
ooo baby, it's simply t h r i l l i n g.



2. Smell of the dust and earth and rain
b o m b a s t i c a l l y - head-spinning endorphins!
let's go running in the rain ;p



3. Guilt-free indulgence of ice cream
Knowing that the hot weather will take the guilt right of your skin the next time you take a walk in afternoon! Chill, babes!



4. Clubbing and drinking legally
bloody stupid americans.



5. Friends, friends, and more friends!
some people, you click. some people, you just don't.



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random mood swing #1

it's the feeling of:
you're surrounded by people
but yet you are still alone

I've forgotten how friends understand each other
be open and tolerate each other
I think I've found something, someone important
and it makes me wonder if I threw away the rest


I ache to feel burning, raging fury
for the simple easy way of feeling
alive
its cheating




twisted and mangled, thoughts on an empty stomach
about confidence, poise and feminity
about stereotypes and being selectively open-minded
is it fair? it is not. but isn't it something called life?
must we give in? no, that's too easy.
nothing is nothing without a fight.
what do we do, in this struggle to validate our existence
we depend on others, we want people to look at us,
notice us and praise us to make us feel good about ourselves
I just wonder why.





perhaps I should write.

oh well. time for bed.
*rubs eyes*



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