haven't been reading.

I haven't been reading other people's blogs. Just flew through some links.




I feel like a shizo. Feel like a bimbo. So air-headed that maybe I could fly. I feel like I've forgotten how to think like me and how to write like me. And here goes this 'I've lost me so find me' thing.


-procrastinates-
I should start reading again. And sleeping earlier. And doing so much other things than the ones I'm doing now.
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oh shaddup.

PDPs. Pre-Departure-Party. wow there's an acronym for such things! They kind of depress me. You know. The usual shit about not seeing people ever again for a long time. But I -kind of- found out where people are going. So I know who might be relatively close. Maybe we should spend some holidays together =) winter breaks where I'm going to be turned out by the housing people at UofM and I WILL NEED SOMEWHERE TO GO! and keep me un-bored. That's really bad english now. I do proper capitalization on whims. I think I will keep some money away now to send people postcards from US. so please give me your house address if you love me. I promise not to stalk you.



I'm leaving Singapore 27th August 6AM on NWA. Everyone tells me its early. I think I'm selfishly glad its so early. 1. No-one will come see me off at that unearthly hour. It makes leaving less clingy and sentimental. [I selfishly make it sound like I don't think I'm coming back, but I am! I am! like next may so you have to celebrate my birthday with me HERE muahaha] 2. I don't have to sit around at home and feel guilty for not seeing people off. Dates pass quickly while I am obessed with me myself and I, my life. 3. I don't have to see people off and feel sad.
Selfish right? But my school does start earlier than yours... I think my parents wanted to strangle me because I'm just too last minute =) even my flight. I'm glad my dad's going to be coming with me, and I'll be checking into dorms when I get there. Would that save hotel room money? We'll plan when my dad gets back. He's so busy nowadays.




Thinking about work today. I'm getting short-fused at work, and it's not good. Think I need to chill, and look at it differently. Its work. I meet nice people, I meet annoying people. I meet sweet customers, I meet bitchy ones. Keep your cool, whatever goes.
And remember to bring your pen, demmit.





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Class dinner by Joshua

Today Joshua cooked us a nice dinner! Thank you Joshua!

We had potato soup, mashed potato, roasted chicken, duck, beef with plum sauce, egg with caviar... Chocolate cake! Nat made a blueberry cheesecake with rum in the topping. I wonder if I'm an alcoholic now... haha barely, considering I went woozy after one vodka and a tequila shot. I'm flying without wings! No redbull. haha.

We had a good girl talk consisting of puiman, wanhua, sheryl, mabel, nat, and ruiyang. Yes you wonder what's ruiyang doing there. But he's dajie. heh. I hope puiman cheers up soon =) meanwhile the rest were playing some loud game in the living room. It sounded loud and fun too.

I managed to find out where most people are going... except for those few guys who came kinda late. Karen is going to Princeton, Grace  John Hopkins, Chau Yale and I UofM... WH would be in Canada, Toronto... That makes Grace WH and I quite close. We should plan to spend some holidays together!


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Been working alot this week, 4 times. I must say I like working, because when I get home after work and sit around after dinner I just feel so damned useless. When I work I get to people watch and earn money. But even while working is fun... you just got to hate the weather it kills your enthusiasm and customers fight over the fans and the smoking area HAHA. Tired legs, occasional klutz-ness, don't know why I wanna go running still.
But sometimes I wonder much about the people. It is a business, it is a job. It's work. How personal should you get with it. I feel sad because I'm gonna have to leave, but they won't be the only people I won't be seeing for very long. I'm not the only one who's leaving, and who has left. So stop angsting around eh o.O
Mmmmm. I miss working with Joe and Boon!!! >.< Like Joe said [!!!], I miss the way he works and his witty and sarcastic remarks and the way he reads my mind =] and I like to talk to Boon!
andthewayhecallsmedarlingandthewayhesmiles=]
Now most of the time I'm either working alone outside or with Firdaus. Hah that madman who sings like mickey mouse =P nah he's funky. Now they are giving incentives for every beer we manage to sell... wonder what will happen, will it ever be quite that fair to everyone? The point of it is to promote individual performance, or what else? Ideally if there was a way to get everyone to work well together, but that surely turns out to be BS =] quote someone: 'bad apples'. But extra moolah so why not? It is a good reason to be more pushy about beer haha. Ooops.



Good things always come to an end >_<

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Do you remember?
when you were young
there were doors you couldn't reach even on tip-toe
losing track of time, entirely lost and wandering
the path of the maze always ends up there.

I can't stop myself from subconsciously seeking out your smile
even now, nothing's changed, I still run after you

no matter how very far apart we are this feeling connects us.
even if a mischievious fate should befall us, it can't be destroyed.

somewhere, in the back of our minds,
we've all got it figured out
that the future we wish for is just beyond there
someday, on some bright sunny day, I want to show you
a time when the tools of war are no more.

this is a world going to hell,
where we can't stop from hurting one another
just by meeting you, I've lost all fear

I don't care how much this body burns itself out, it's all for you
I'll fly up, lily white, to the great blue sky to keep you safe

no matter how very far apart we are this feeling connects us.
even if a mischievious fate should befall us, it can't be destroyed.

I don't care how much this body burns itself out, it's all for you
I only wish that one day I can show you the world born anew.


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